Isn't it amazing to just sit back and let God have control of your life? Have you ever done that? Have you ever just sat back and said "Ok God, I am tired. I know there is more to my life than what I have now. I know you have a plan for me and I am ready to see this plan come to light. God, I am putting you in control of my life and I am taking a back seat." If not, you really should.
For the past year I have felt this tugging on my heart. I am lucky to be surronded by some pretty amazing women of faith, I will call them out. They are my MSQ sisters. I have been watching what God is doing in their lives and I wanted to be like them. Sometimes, you just know you are not complete.
In March (I think it was March) I was invited to speak at a local church about coupons. My friend Susan goes to church there. I was speaking at their monthly women's meeting. I met some pretty amazing people that night and since that day have thought about them now and then.
A little over a month ago Susan invited me back to church. She got me with dinner for just $3. I won't lie. lol What is better to a mom than a cheap meal at someone elses place and not having to clean up? HELLO! But, I was also going because I knew I NEEDED to be there.
I have to admit it was kind of odd being in church again and not being there because it was a holiday or because Grandpa was singing a special that day. I was going because I KNEW I NEEDED to be there. I have always had a relationship with God but have not been in a church in a while.
I had gotten to the point of thinking "What is the big deal? I worship God in my home and try to live my life the way he would want me to live it." Well, now that I have been going a few weeks I am amazed at just how much actually GOING to church can do for you. I have never cried so much in my life! lol It is a good cry, a pure, raw, emotional, Spirit filled cry. I think the last time I have felt that was FCA camp my senior year.
Now, let me tell you, A few weeks ago I was questioning my decision on going to THIS church. I just wasn't sure that THIS church was were I needed to be. I am 100% sure tonight that THIS church is where I am supposed to be now. There is no doubt in my mind anymore, THIS is where I belong.
The reason I was doubting my decision, or should I say God's decision, was because it was different than what I had known. I grew up in the First Christian Church and this was NOT that church. This church is Assembly of God and is WAY different. But, sometimes different is good.
Yes, I have seen some things in this church that I have never in my life seen before. I will admit, at first I thought it was kind of weird. But, I continued to pray and listen to God. I may not fully understand the why's or the how's but I know I will get there.
I do want to share what happened tonight. I was sitting in church, listening to the preacher do his thang. But this time I was REALLY listening. He then opened up the Alter and I watched as the people of the church were being prayed for and some pretty amazing things were going on. While I don't fully understand everything, I was sitting in my seat praying that someone would come talk to me about it. I was praying that Phyllis, one of the ladies there, would have the time at some point to talk to me about everything. I knew it may not happen tonight but I prayed that at just some point in my journey she would. Then, what do I see? Phyllis is walking back to her seat. She stops, then comes over and sits beside me and starts talking to me about everything! I am not kidding! It was AMAZING! Thank God for her! She was telling me about a man in the church and his journey and trying to explain some things. Guess who I randomly ran into at Braum's later that night? Yep, that guy. I have NO DOUBT that THIS is where I am supposed to be! THIS is MY Church! Praise God!